Bella
Blumenschein
Creations
Compilation
SHIFTS AND PIECES
I find comfort in being on a plane that is about to take off, speeding with its tiny wheels, shaking the floor be
The almost-gone/almost-going of a plane that is a few seconds from flying makes me feel like I’m about to enter a wormhole that sucks me from here and throws me there. Looking out the window, I realize the sky is no longer black, but a bright royal blue with thin orange rays pointing up from somewhere below the earth. The engines start running, the ground begins to slowly move, and I remember to put the seat belt on.
The wheels speed faster and faster and faster and the adrenaline is almost tangible, brushing my skin, this physical thing that is me. I close my eyes and feel encapsulated by a shiny outline that contours my whole I, keeping me in the stillness, protected from here and from there. I wish this moment would last longer, as long as it can, as the thrill stems and steams from the pleasure of being shielded in the in-between.
With my feet heavy on the shaky floor and my back pressed against the hard compact seat, I simply am. And as much as I like here and there, feeling detached from the complications carried by each shift is like having my whole body immersed in warm water, the whole universe reduced to the size of a tub. Everything is so still and silent except for the glubglub of spills on the floor as I remain protected from the outer universe beyond my body and the water.
Sometimes reality escapes me and I crave being on a plane that is about to take off, speeding, almost-gone/almost-going, and I’m nowhere really. I crave those few seconds in which the shiftiness of my life is paralyzed, my mind is kept sheltered, as I dissolve like snow on a warm winter day. The shift frozen, everything melting.
I feel the plane lifting off the ground, flowing further and further towards the endless blueness of the sky as the orange rays grow thicker and brighter, the blueness thinner and lighter. The bubble suddenly bursts, the shiny outline fades and I am exposed to the shiftiness once again.